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1975- Elvis talking of early life...

W: ...so you had a steady girl in high school-Dixie?
E: Uh-huh, an' then there was another one later on saw quite a lot of for a while,'n then was on the road and makin' movies so we kind of went separate ways.
W: Anita Woods...she was a d.j.-is that right-that's how you met her?
E: Kinda yeah, saw her picture an' thought well, now, there's a star-she was a singer-not d.j. really. Had a record out an' doin' things, ya know, makin' appearances.
W: Okay, so that was work related-then she was your steady?
E: (snickers) Honey, she was a good friend, an' I liked her alot but there were others too... You know me, can't say no ever time!
W: Really! Changing your story now...huh?
E: Naw...really. (Laughs)
W; So what did you do when you went on dates-
E: Damn sure didn't sing to 'em! (Laughs) Just went to the movies-used to go to gospel singings a lot-my first girlfirend wasn't outta school yet-ya know. So we didn't go out much-I was workin' an' tryin' to get somethin' goin' with the records...she was kinda upset 'cause I wasn't home much-an' too, she saw some of the girls hanging after me a time or two. Kinda made it difficult to explain all the time. Just like now...don't know how to keep things on-on a nice easy relationship...somethin' always comes up to-to-to change things...
W: Same old, same old, huh?
E: Guess so-can't blame 'em though-wouldn't like a bunch of guys hangin' around any woman of mine neither-No way man!
W: That career of yours is a very jealous lover Elvis, guess you've learned that well.
E: Uh-huh...(Sighs) got everything in the world 'n still sittin' in the same place-alone. Gawd...crazy isn't it? I mean, how you give up something just to have some thin' ?
W: I guess it's true.
E: I know it is. Gawd do I! Don't want to do this now- When I was younger I thought it'd be easy- I mean, you know-havin' so many beautiful women linin' up and all that- never even crossed my mind I'd feel like I do now-
lonely you know, some times I feel like it's -eh-kinda like I live in a different world entirely an' people just visit 'n then they go back to their world only I can't go---gawd, does that make sense?
W: It does...I've thought of you that way-how your life is so different and wonder how you manage to stay so...level headed and accepting of everything. I guess you are used to it...it's been that way for years, hasn't it?
E: Yeah...I was just 19 when all...hell broke loose-by the time I was 20 couldn't go out without somebody lookin' out for me an' you know, when it got really tough- was when I had to stay in hotel rooms way up--lookin' down on every body at the pool or where ever an' I'm up there alone...seems like hours an' hours of bein' alone- I'd get depressed man, too often! So started lookin' for nice girls to keep me company-you know, not like what you might be thinkin'...just wanted someone to talk to, maybe eat dinner with or somethin' -anythin' to keep from bein' so...alone 'n thinkin' too much. An' the journalists started out makin' it into somethin' dirty...like I was a-a well, you know what they said. Wasn't that way-not really- I mean sure I'm no saint- or nothin' 'n yeah, I -I -eh-well, anyway, wasn't like it was somethin' I was doin' with ever thing wearin' a skirt! Gawd-wasn't that way-much- A lot of 'em, sure, but nothin' like they said! Got so I hated seein' journalists...an' had to keep puttin' on a smile for 'em! Got so felt like my whole #*#*#*#*** life was a-a damn movie script-bad one at that!

It's painful to know how lonely Elvis was. Recently, I was watching the Aloha Special (the rehearsal show) & when Elvis was singing "I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry" I could see a tear come down his face. It wasn't sweat, but a tear. Just ripped me up inside to see that 'cause I knew it was coming from deep within his soul.

That's right, especially then because he said that he realized then that he would never have his life be the same again-Priscilla wasn't coming back, Lisa wasn't going to be living with them and he'd have to find time to be with his daughter. He so hoped that Priscilla would at that time, see how important his career was to him and the world of people and understand but she didn't see it... She didn't want to be a prisoner in a golden cage with him or anyone like him... and being in Hawaii, their favorite place to go to be together- he realized he had been "a fool to think it made a difference what I wanted or what I thought" was how he put it. And too, his eye was killling him, his head hurt the lights blinded him and he had to stand there singing the love songs that he sang for her--- I guess from what he said, he sang them to her at special times in their married life- private times -those were his words... so when he stood there with his eyes closed, singing so emotionless as far as his face went, he was remembering or trying not to-whatever-he was crying and the way he sang them...so sadly and they were supposed to be happy kind of songs. It hurt to see that-but they were staged when he thought she was coming-and so he had to do them. and he did. wjh

you know there are some missions in the world that takes big efforts,self-sacrificing,and devotion..to support and protect such a sweet spirited one of a kind,special and talented person itself could have been a great mission for an ordinary person.Yes it was a sacred mission yet she took it as being in a cage..not helping him,what else she achieved in her life more important..

He was a special person and he chose a special person who just happened to be too young for such an impact he must have made on that just forming young girl who was just beginning to "test her powers" and then HE chose her! What a powerful thing that must have been in her life. And she "fought" to keep him there too-and she won. But at what cost to both of them-we will never truly know that answer. He wasn't lonely all of the time-he could pick and choose whom he wanted for company and did- when he called he was usually bored or wanted to talk about something or share something and usually he was laughing and funny more than sad. There were moments of course, that were very sad, but he snapped out of it pretty quickly. He said his life was great, he had everything any one could want and more-if he saw it that way, then I can't dwell on the bad parts all that much. Mostly, I remember him laughing, giggling and having fun- there were far more of those moments than sad ones, even though it seems not so-it was just the end that was sad-but even then he laughed and joked quite a bit. And he said, there were only a few things he would change about his life, mostly he would do it all the same way again. That just about says it all. wjh

We need to be reminded that he basically had a fun-filled like because he made it so with his humor and genorisity. But it is so easy to be burdened with his sad times because we just didn't want him to have those. Just as we are sad for our loved ones who suffer. But to think how special Elvis was to so many people is truly mind boggling!!! I'll never be able to fully aware of how much, but I know he was/is truly loved. I just hope he knows it.

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I HAVE SO OFTEN THOUGHT THAT. Yet I really can't judge her for "missing the mark" (in Aramic, the language of Jesus, the word "sin" simply means "missing the mark or target.") It was not an easy life. It was her right to choose to not take on that role.. HOW she chose to dis-enagage herself from it is where her lower self got the upper hand.


(Hey call me a bit immature, but I just love these Emoticions I found for us to use. There is something for every emotion. )

CUTE! That one Elvis would love-and fully understand as he did that on nearly a daily basis! wjh

I know the feeling.
Sometimes watching him make me very happy and sometimes I get so sad, cause of what he's been through and because he's no longer with us.

I know how you all feel. Sometimes I get so angry I want to beat a hole in the wall just thinking of why didn't someone do something! But then I have to think of other such people as Elvis who also came to bad ends and no one did anything. Maybe they are martyers who are here to touch the people with their lives, instill into those who need it, the will and power to live and feel and understand and by their lives, give them examples of how to go on with life. If they did not suffer on the one hand and have such beauty and talent on the other-like a tetter totter -then would the world have noticed them?
They must have to have that pain in order to give such pleasure to others. Elvis with his beauty, voice and talent-and his style of understanding and revealing things in words-reached so many-world wide, and would that have remained so strong if he had not had a "notorious" sudden death and there not have been so much hoopla and mystery surrounding it? Probably not-that has kept him "hot" and on the minds and hearts of so many-even now-30 years later! Unbelievable. wjh

Sometimes, like tonight when I finally got to watch the 68 Comeback special (found it-or it found me? and got it-the only one in the store too!) I feel the old excitement that was always there when going to see him perform and then to get to watch him, his facical expressions, body, hands and little things he did with his eyes, always watching, noticing, the nervous antics and to hear him laugh, giggle and talk...I want to go find him, call him, go see him, and it sure can hurt physically as well as mentally that I can't do that anymore. Not here.
Starla brought home a thick little book of pictures from Elvis' life and looking through it I noticed the obvious difference in his eyes-the expression change-after his mother died. It was like night and day-the inner soul behind those eyes changed...I think it made such a mark on him inside that the outside reflected it in many ways.
When he was married, expecting Lisa, and then when she was born, those eyes changed again...almost like they used to be, as if little Lisa filled up that big hole that was left when his mom was gone. And then in 73 when he knew it was time to "give it up", his eyes grew sadder, lost looking at times, and though he smiled and laughed, there was a big difference inside the man. And his eyes show it... He was so happy on the 68 special....tickled that it was "working" and "he still had it"
And he loved it so much...he was bubbling over...and whenhe did Love Me Tender he was asking his fans, please love me...again. make my dreams come true...
it was kind of like a prayer it seemed to me...watching him now. Interesting to see things I didn't see before and couldn't see after he left us...now my eyes are open again. wjh

Glad to hear it, Wanda.

I guess that probably you had to let go, to be ready to let new things in.

Wanda, this is the first time I realize the true meaning the words of that song had for Elvis!! Not just an old song from the past at that moment but a real affirmation from the heart by him