no fairytale neither did i have the funds, not having much money to begin with, im in overdraft right now, so ive got to get the money back first, then sort out my balance, and get back the fees im paying now.
its going to take a while but im hoping will be ok.
ive certainly removed it from automatic pay now, so i can either accept or deny things.
i run my little account like a tight ship, theres mostly enough in it to cover my loan which comes out, thats why i was flooding england with tears.
if i miss a payment i could be in trouble .
the waiting game to get it back is excruciating, and on top of that my new extra diabetic tablets are affecting my eyes so i cant focus properly.
so ive stopped the extra tablets today and hope my eyes recover .
i often wonder if god dislikes me and my family , and why nothing ever goes right for us, we are really fed up with the constant struggle we have to go through just to live day to day .
im serious tho we are not noted for good luck .
its like we must be cursed or something, and everytime something comes along , someone up there thinks what more can i do to them for fun.
its kinda hard to exist sometimes, i mean have i been put on this earth just for some evil sprite to take pot shots at every now and then or what, was my grandad cursed as it seems joyces dont have much luck anywhere, my mum was buying some petrol and talking to the cashier lady about our luck, she said she used to be a joyce too and never had good luck, untiill she married and it all changed to good luck.
oh great who am i gonna get to marry me quasimodo lol
oh well i guess im stuck as a joyce huh
thank god ive got you lot for my sanity
luv ju

