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I'm so sorry you are having a time so demanding, with such a great feeling of loss, Natalie.

It must be hard on you.

Maybe you have to go through all this to reinforce your sense of transcendence, your beliefs. And it is always done in the hardest times.
But, Natalie, tomorrow the Sun will rise again and a new day will be born, the same way Life is new each instant.

My best wishes for you.

Sweet Sweet Natalie...

I´m so sorry to hear this, Natalie
I was drawn to your post and normally I´m sleeping this time, believe me.... But because today it is the birthday of my Mother in Law Gina, who is in heaven.... (Normally she would turn 56 today).... I wasn´t sleeping yet.... I just wanted to tell you, that you´re in my heart and I´m praying for you, Natalie for you to deal with these loses.... I know they hurt...

I could tell you what had happened to me and what feelings I had on my path, but it wouldn´t be any of help to you.... like Amanda said: "it is always done in the hardest times"..... And that´s really true... we all have our cross to carry... like Jesus had, like El´vis had.... And they are God´s children, as you and we all are....

Keep on listening El´vis his gospel-songs, Natalie... He IS helping you and writing your feelings down, because when you do that you have said it and then you can go on and try to deal with the feelings you have and give it his place in your heart... It will stay there forever....

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tomorrow the Sun will rise again and a new day will be born, the same way Life is new each instant.

Sending you "BUBBLES of LOVE" everytime you need it.......

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That text is beautiful, Julie. Thank you.

Natalie,

When a close person comits suicide for whatever reason, it creates a wide wave of feelings for the persons around. Anger, blame and guilt are among them. But it will go fading with time.

Strange enough, I don't recomand you now to try to "understand". Just let those feelings pass through you without resistance and let them go. They are natural in your present circunstances. Recognize them, accept them and they will go more easily. If you try to fight them back, they'll gain strenght, because they need to be expressed and don't want to be denied.

Meanwhile, give a little more space everyday to positive action, like you do coming into the forum. If you get overflowed by feelings, cannalize them in some constructive fisical action, like cleaning your garden (if you have one), or cooking a special meal with love and care, etc. Emotion is an energy. If we are getting drowned in it, we can cannalize it to action and help that energy to flow. Don't get afraid of emotions. They are only an instrument. Our inner being can't be hurt by them, as it is at another level of frecuency.

LOVE and best wishes, Natty.

There are no words that I can add to what Amanda has posted.
Just know at ELC we all think of you and time will help and we are here for you.
Love,
Marjorie

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She is such a beauty!

Last week I have found dead a little abandoned kitty I had adopted, probably hit by a car. He was growing big and beautiful. I never got to touch him, because he was terribly scared. I was working on him with LOVE energy -El'vis' kind- to cure the big deal of terror he carried. One day, I was sending him energy from behind the crystal door, not to scare him and a WHITE BUTTERFLY flyed around his head for about a minute while the cat standed still, seated in front of me. His attitude was like of "listening", attentive. The next day, he came back to the same place, so close to the house's door, which he had never done before, because he was always running by the corners of the garden, hidding, afraid to any sound.

From that time on, he seemed more free and confidant. A few days later, he was dead. But I'm happy because he got to feel LOVE and depart with a lighter spirit.

How beautiful, Amanda, you succeeded to win the cat's confidence through LOVE and Elvis' assistance (as WHITE BUTTERFLY)!!!!