by Wanda June Hill » Tue Nov 14, 2006 2:00 pm
Was that at the rehearsal show or the satillite show that he repeated the verses in Burning Love? I know that he was very nervous, he had the detatched retina, his eye was killing him, he'd just had fluid drained out of his eye that day according to one of his onstage member's recollection, and he was still hoping but knowing it wasn't going to happen, that his little girl would be there to be part of that event. I kind of think his plate was full and he was doing the best he could...I wouuld have been a blank wall if it were me-and had a teleprompter to tell me what to say and all the lyrics! And probably someone standing by to coach me too! He was out there as usual, doing it on his own as far as keeping it straight. He hadn't slept much either-so that alone blunts the memory of most people...though he seemed to do it pretty well for years... He messed up on songs off and on his whole life out of being nervous or just playing around with them. Usually he'd look at Charlie or someone else on stage and kind of grin at them acknowledging his boo-boos...and go right on. I do know that the stress he was under at the Aloha shows was a bit more than normal-he was realizing at that time his dreams and hopes for ever having Priscilla back in his life as his wife/mate was over-he knew at that time he had to give it up and get on with his life...that changed everything between them as far as he was concerned...he accepted it finally at that time...though he had to "get over it" for sometime after. It was like someone took a sharp knife and cut the cord-that's what he said-his words-he asked her to bring Lisa and to come, he said he told her he wanted them to be there-to share it with him-that he needed them there-now I don't know if he actually said "I need you to be there" or that he was "nervous and scared" or if he assumed she would know those things because he asked her to come-wanted his daughter to be there- who knows, maybe he thought he made himself clear, maybe because he felt so much about it he felt she would understand-who knows now-but he sure thought she would be there-he waited, he kept watching for them, right to the time of the show apparently-and even thought they might be sitting where he could see them to surprise him-Charlie said that to a friend of ours at one of the Vegas shows-And when the director of the show or whom ever he was producer whatever, noticed how much Elvis missed his wife, wanted her to be there and how angry he was at her and hurt, so much so that a stranger noticed and was moved to tears over this man's pain and heart ache, that really got to me. I then understood that it was hard for Elvis to be there, performing for the WORLD (that really blew him out of the water when he thought about the size of that audience) and that the ones he loved so much, especially his little girl, wasn't there with him to share and to give him support. His dad was there, Linda was there (I think she was, but can not be positive now-he might have left her home since he was expecting his wife and child???? I know she was in is life already and had been and he and she were closer after the Aloha show)
I will try to put his "forgetfullness" more into Face to Face girls, in case there are those who need a bit more convincing. I too, think that exhaustion, pain, lack of sleep and nerves were a good part of his problem with words at those shows, and others as well. The last concert tour he was having problems here and there and even in the tv show on Are You Lonesome he flubbed them up BUT he didn't miss a cue, he went right through and then picked it up exactly on cue... he was clear enough to make it funny, even though crying through the song, making it funny...as always the consumate performer. God how his heart must have been breaking, if there was any part of it not already broken a dozen places already...I believe the knew he'd never perform again...and had no intention of trying...he had not packed his books for that next tour...they always went on tour with him-he had not packed anything he would personally pack to take...nor did he ask anyone to do it...while he told them what to get...he knew. he was waiting, hoping I think, that he would not have to go and he didn't. I think he asked God to please, I want to go home...and He listened, looked upon his tired and worn out child and said, "Come home son, I need you here."
Elvis had just told me not long before, "God won't be that mean to me, He's gonna send momma and I'm gonna go home." Maybe that's what I'm going to say in Face to Face...along with a bit of the other. I wasn't going to cry over him again, but I can't seem to stop it sometimes. I'm a "big baby too" Elvis...when it comes to you, damn it. wjh
Wanda June Hill
author of "We Remember, Elvis" & "Elvis - Face to Face"